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inspiration & design...

"Work like you don't need the money;
dance like no one is watching;
sing like no one is listening;
love like you've never been hurt;
and live every day as if it were your last."

~ Old Irish Proverb ~ Author Unknown ~
~ Health in mind, body & soul.... Namaste. ~
~ Dolphin. ~

Sunday, March 14, 2010

"Introduction to the Principles of Pilates Workshop Series" (Preliminary Info/Working Title)

Preliminary information from my:

"Introduction to the Principles of Pilates Workshop Series"

(Under design still...

I.e. I will be expanding this information & over time & changing the order of how the principles are explored.

I will post update info as I go.. for this is being shared as a work in progress.

ALL information is copy write!)

Pilates Principles

Physical fitness is the first requisite of happiness. Our interpretation of physical fitness is the attainment and maintenance of a uniformly developed body with a sound mind fully capable of naturally, easily, and satisfactorily performing our many and varied daily tasks with spontaneous zest and pleasure.

"To achieve the highest accomplishments within the scope of our capabilities in all walks of life we must constantly strive to acquire strong healthy bodies and develop our minds to the limit of our ability."

So begins Joseph Pilates, in his book " Return To Life Through Contrology" , outlining the fundamental goal of his technique.
He intended this technique to be not only about muscular strength or cardiovascular fitness, but as a movement regime for the whole body.

In designing this body of work, Joe began with the philosophical stance and built the approach and exercises to fulfill the purpose of serving the principles of:

- Full Body Health:
Joe emphasizes the unity of the whole body, mind, and spirit.

This includes physical activity, good diet, and cleanliness.
Joe speaks really of the attainment of a way of life.

He doesn’t simply talk about exercise from a structural, physical stance. He speaks of how this allows you to achieve a whole, disciplined body that can move efficiently with spirit through the life you choose to live.

- Full Body Commitment:
To achieve whole body health requires commitment and discipline.

First and foremost is a commitment to a healthy lifestyle! Patience, persistence, and diligence to yourself and to the exercises.

The exercises themselves have no importance. (I disagree w/the statement to some degree, but that is what Joe believed). But, the intention of how to move to accomplish that movement skill/ability is of paramount importance. This requires whole body involvement and integration.

- Breathing:
This is the starting point for life.

Breathing is essential for life from the physiological perspective. It is the connection of mind and spirit from the "yogic" perspective.

The action of breathing is the most immediate connection into our Core and hence becomes the starting point for movement. In the exercises, the breath informs the movement and regulates the rhythm of the movement.


These are the principles identified by Phillip Friedman & Gail Eisen in "The Pilates Method of Physical and Mental Conditioning" ,
first published in 1980.

These principles can be considered as subsets of the guiding principles from which Joe worked. These apply more directly to the technique of the exercise system that is the Pilates Method.

It is important to remember that there is a difference between philosophy and technique: the philosophy is there to inform the technique; the technique is there to serve the philosophy.

Without teaching the philosophy along with the technique, all you are teaching is the exercises. The goal is to provide for uniform, balanced whole body development.

1. Concentration:

You must learn to pay attention to every part of the body and all parts at the same time. To do this, you must first learn to pay attention - recognize incoming information so to learn to accept, evaluate and respond.

I.e. Develop kinesthetic awareness
Eventually, through the conscious control, the neuromuscular patterning becomes embodied, becoming automatic, thus allowing freedom, ease and efficiency of movement.

This concept is also about being present in the moment to experience the movement in your body.

- Accepting incoming information from the body
- If a person cannot assess what is going on in the body, they cannot send a clear message from the brain to the body

Concentrate on the correct movements each time you exercise, lest you do them improperly and thus lose all the vital benefits of their value. ~Joe Pilates

2. Control:

You must be in control of the whole body, all of the time.

Every exercise of the classical repertoire involves the whole body - what is actively moving, what is actively stabilizing, what is actively releasing. This control provides increased feeling of power.

Ideally, our muscles should obey our will. Reasonably, our will should not be dominated by the reflex action of our muscles. ~Joe Pilates

As a client, you need to accept responsibility for yourself, and/or your body! ~ME! (& well.. sorta Joe)

Pilates On The Chief

3. Centering:

The starting place that supports the body and from which all movement begins.

Joe’s designation: The Girdle of Strength
• The front and Back of the body between the ribs and the top of the pelvis.

The contemporary Pilates designation:
• The front and back of the body extending between the floating ribs and the top of the pelvis.
• This area is crucial for supporting the spine (and the CNS).
• This area has no bone except the spine. If this area is not stable, it is difficult for any other part of the body to move efficiently and effectively.

Stabilization of the core, both in movement and in stillness!

4. Precision:

Correctly executed and mastered to the point of subconscious reaction, these exercises will reflect grace and balance in your routine and activities. ~Joe Pilates

Pilates is about effective and efficient movement throughout the body. To develop this requires a balance and coordination of all the muscular systems throughout the body.

For new participants, they often begin with well-ingrained, imbalanced muscular patterns.

Is there any point to mimicking through a movement or exercise without conscious effort to correct these imbalances?

By learning the wrong way, you only reinforce bad habits.

This requires self-discipline --> can you commit to disciplining your body?

There is no bad movement, just movement done badly ~Eve Gentry

Image of an old watch - if all the little parts are working properly, the watch works perfectly. ~Kathy Grant

Practice does not make perfect, perfect practice makes perfect ~Joseph Pilates

If you do not put your bones in the right positions, your muscles can’t pull on them properly, and so your joints are out of position. This means you cannot strengthen the muscles properly because they are not in the right position. You also can’t release the other side properly, and you can’t build a balanced relationship between muscles.

5. Flowing Movement:

The Pilates system is about movement!

When you put these principles together, you get balanced muscle development with the knowledge of how the body parts move in relation to each other, and as such efficiency of movement. All this leads to natural movement and natural rhythm (pace).

The body learns through movement, not through stillness and the best way to learn strength, efficiency, etc. is through movement. There is no end point for the movements, they are cyclical and flowing in sequence. Pilates exercises are designed to increase the range of motion with progression of/through the exercises.

If you go at a very slow, or a very fast pace, you are going to be using too much muscle and not allowing your body’s rhythm to be normal. The brain will not (can not) learn properly at a slow or fast pace. For example, when you work too slow, the brain will segment the movements and it will not be able to put them together as efficient movement.

6. Breathing:

Breathing is important in many ways:

It is the life force!

It is essential to life - to bring in O2 and remove CO2 from the body
It facilitates circulation of cerebral-spinal fluid through the central nervous system. It has a profound effect on posture. Inhaling into the ribs takes pressure off the discs.

But, if you inhale into the abdominals, you pull the spine forward, bringing the vertebrae together and putting pressure on the discs. Correct breathing will move the ribs and use the intercostals. As you lift and separate the ribs, you lift and separate the vertebrae. Everything falls back together on the exhale.

Pilates with "Cat"
(I've actually put vertebrae back into place just by breathing.. so much for needing that Chiropractor appointment?!

And let me tell you.. does it EVER feel good when it happens! :)

Each exercise in Pilates has a specific breathing pattern that directs the movement, designed to allow easier movement through the exercise.

You have got to OUT the air to IN the air! ~Joseph Pilates


Pilates Principles Handout Client Version

Modified and Compiled by Michelle Marcicki
~ Unity Integration Studios ~ Vancouver, BC
~ Email: UnityIntegration@shaw.ca ~

(Original Compilation/Creation by:
Steve Bryson ~ Bodyworks Pilates Studio ~ Edmonton, AB)

~ Last Edited: January 28, 2009
~ Last Update (major): January 28, 2009
~ Created: July 09, 2007

Copyright: Michelle Marcicki ~ Unity Integration Studios
(And Steve Bryson ~ Bodyworks Pilates Studio)



~ Return To Life Through Contrology ; Pilates, Joseph H. (Joe); First published in 1945
~ "The Pilates Method of Physical and Mental Conditioning" ; Eisen, Gail & Friedman, Phillip; First published in 1980

More to come (for various other quotes & information).
~ Kathy Grant
~ Eve Gentry


*New*-ish blog feature!
Songs listened to while writing (in this case editing/publishing)...

~ Sinéad O'Connor - Troy

Also.. related "articles" I'm working on:

~ Cross-lateral movement - Article review/assessment & beyond
~ How long does it take to build muscle? - Article review/assessment & beyond

~ For the weekend warriors.. why you ICE (not heat)! - A snippet from the world of my first aid, massage therapy, Pilates & other fitness & Kinesiology training/knowledge!

~ Anatomy Books (aka Sexy Reading ;) - What's hot, what's awesome, what's for the layperson, the dancer, the weekend warrior, the athlete..

~ Neural Pathways... a.k.a. How the Mind Works - fascinating stuff..

~ Why We Breathe... (How we breathe) - Breathe in, Breathe out.. a little poetry.. a little A&P.. just for fun ;)

Saturday, March 6, 2010

NIA (Integration of heart, mind, body and soul...)

(Integration of heart, mind, body and soul...)

~ barefoot beauty
pleasure in senses,
dancing between the lines
outside the boundaries,
beyond the mind

~ pure joy
sensations merging,
empowering to the point of tears
of release,
of hope

~ dancing dreams
of passion,
of connection
amalgamation of heart, mind, body and soul
bliss and wonderment

~ tapestry
collection of hearts beating in time
in rhythm
explosion of expression
a spark,
a moment
a deepening,
a release
breaking free

~ awareness
of the soles of my feet,
my breath,
every fibre of my being

~ integration
from the ground up
energy from the earth
feel your feet
feel your body
beyond time

~ barefoot beauty
pleasure in sensation
dancing beyond the lines
inside the body
inside the mind


Copyright: Michelle L. Marcicki (Dolphin)
Written: January 4-7, 2010
Updated: February 11, 2010
Edited: March 6, 2010

*New* blog feature!
Songs listened to while writing...
~ Sway - Michael Bublé
~ Lost - Michael Bublé
~ Bring it on home to me - Wilson Pickett
~ Downtown Train - Tom Waits
~ Just Like Heaven - The Watson Twins
~ You Send Me - Sam Cooke
~ No Woman, No Cry - Bob Marley

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Random Update - Human Again...

Well... I had a moment.. well a few of them actually in the last while.. and realized that it's been almost a month since I've written ANYthing.

And true to "me" form, I decide to take on a whole bunch of topics, manifesting and starting with one odd idea (wouldn't y'all LOVE to know what that was ;), randomly throw them together and try and make sense of it all.

Get on my train.
See earlier post about "What A Good Boy" if you need an update on how to find and follow my caboose! Get your minds outta the gutter.. Well.. that or invite me along... Haha.

So... Seeing as I have over 30+ drafts sitting there calling my name I have little excuse to be not be writing..

But. Instead. I'll ignore all of those and write something totally unrelated, rather random and somewhat "vague"... since so many blogs out there do that everyday. I mean write about random, probably somewhat boring elements of their daily lives... I thought I'd lash out and try it (wide-eyed innocence and NO sarcasm here at all.. ;)

The only thing I'm missing is a silly photo or video that has NO relevance or bearing on the situation.. ANY situation. Oh wait.. I'll post pics of my new hair.. b/c I look hot.. sure.. yah.. whatever.

Update on the last month:
(a.k.a. What the hell happened to February 2010!?)

New hair color!

Yaaaahhhhh baby!
I hair modeled about 2-3 weeks ago (which I have often done, as my hair is long, cool & goes curly, straight, pretty much whatever I/you/they want.. so hair dressers kinda love me :) and had a chance to be someone's "final exam" for her natural red-headed color tech. The first go at the color was ~3 weeks ago, and then I came in ~2 weeks ago for her final, plus a bit of color correction and root touch-up (apparently my hair grows REALLY fast)!

What can I say really.. except her teachers raved, they loved it, they thought I was a natural & scolded me extensively that I had better keep this color.. or else! As for the color tech.. while she still really needs to work on her communication, people skills and client rapport... A LOT in fact, on the hair color "tech'ing" side of things.. she is clearly talented and everyone is quite happy.

So.. the verdic.. I AM a red-head again & EFF'ING loving it!
In fact. It's better than any MacDonald's commercial. I so should have been born with this hair color. All I can say is WTF genetics... why did you not give me this color from birth!?

Don't get me wrong.. I rather like my natural hair color too.. brown, w/red highlights, etc.. but there is something about red that just kills it for me. Everyone agrees. So why did nature get it so wrong?
I even have the "fair skin colour, freckles, and sensitivity to ultraviolet light". Sigh.

Well, a wee genetics lesson is in order then for those that may not understand the depth of my woes. My mom is a redhead, my dad has dark hair. It requires receipt of two copies of a specific recessive gene on chromosome 16 (in case you were wondering) to get red hair. It's rather unique.

Red hair is caused by a relatively rare recessive gene.

As Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Red_hair says...
"Even if both parents do not have red hair themselves, both can be carriers for the gene and have a redheaded child." Clearly this did not work in my case.

After doing genetics in university.. I was furious at my dad for months regarding his genetic make-up and the subsequent miss on me being born to the ranks of the naturally redheaded sexiness group. Good thing there is nothing he could really do about it and I eventually forgave him. But damn. ALL my cousins got red hair.
I guess my aunt married the right guy, genetically speaking that is...

I will keep this strongly in mind as I screen and choose any future mates.. Unless you're really hot (or named George Stroumboulopoulos, which is kinda both... ;), then I might just not care too much.

I was however many, many years ago voted on by three natural redheads and they granted me "honorary redhead status".

So that counts for something.. right?
I think I had "2 out of 3" of the already legendary redhead traits:

1. I have the fire/intensity/passion of a redhead apparently (also Google Scorpio as this applies too ;) and;
2. the lovely fair skin that burns at the mere hint, or mention of SUN and freckles.. (or tans with SPF of 30 on), or turns a rather embarrassing and pretty shade o'pink when I blush.. and of course;
BONUS: I have a parent that has natural red hair.. but that is considered extra.. although mom's count more than dad's do in these situations.. go figure.

But to wrap up.. for further interest/entertainment, or general genetic reading pleasure...
A really great, somewhat funny (not sure why I find it funny, but I do) and quite informative bit on Red Hair Genetics: http://www.derm.med.ed.ac.uk/06_teaching/redhairgen.htm

Dance/Pilates/Massage/Other treatment studio idea:

Hmmm.. next on the agenda for the month was a bunch of strange business leaps, ideas, and opportunities. Sadly.. nothing really came of them, but they motivated me, and reminded me off what I really should, and need to be doing with my life. I've known this "path" for a very, very long time and have to keep reminding myself that I just got side-tracked for a while and there is still time to do it!

Not sure how it all transpired exactly now, but a girl friend of mine contacted me to say that the yoga studio downstairs from her apartment was suddenly vacant, and possibly available to rent. Apparently the business and the owner didn't have the best business model or structure and had gone out of business or moved...
My friend teaches belly dance and it is an awesome fit to pair with Pilates.. as long as we could work together and not have any scheduling conflicts.

So we met up the day I had my hair dyed..
I was feeling rather dynamic.. a new being.. transformed in the light of day and in the dark into a redheaded goddess.. oh wait.. wrong storyline.. Sorry. Eek. < blush />

Anyway... we sat down and in a few mere hours over coffee and chocolate sustenance at Starbucks we hashed out a pretty damn fine Dance/Pilates/Massage/Other treatment studio idea and business structure.
Our two problems.. then and still:
1. Money/start-up funding (any angel investors out there?!) and;
2. The space ended up being way too expensive to be realistic (and also ended up being rented by the time she got around to talking to her landlord about it).

Sad. However.. we did put together a really amazing concept, and we realized that we have very similar focuses, business goals, organization structure and approaches, and even dreams/goals of what to do with such a concept, space, and business.

So, unfortunately, the idea is once again on a bit of a back burner.. but it now has my red kettle sitting on it simmering.. and I'm thinking: Pilates Business Studio dreams & ideas again.. somehow, someday.. soon!

Now I just have to be patience until my career coach person gets back mid-March and I can get back to meeting, etc and get on the awesome path again.

It is frustrating though, as I want to do it NOW!

I want the roadblocks gone, I want to start doing what I am supposedly to be doing on this planet, once and for all.. fully and completely! I am impatient, and I need to keep reminding myself that things do happen for a reason, and at the time needed and intended. (Ok.. enough hippie shit and just get on w/it says the other part of my brain..)

Next up.. and I'm going to leave this slightly vague and undefined, as it requires a whole blog post off it's own..

Met an old (OLD!) friend for coffee, then lunch, then photo shoot and another few photo shoot(s) to come!:

Wow. Does that seem like a whole lot of crazy. Yep. Days after I was asked to do a write-up for an event out here.. for a magazine out in Toronto, I had a perfectly synchronous run-in with a very old friend of mine, Mike. Now, Mike & I have known each other for ~15+ yrs and he is doing a similar path.. wandering his way back to remembering who he really is and what he really loves to be doing everyday. More on that later.. as I said.. there is a whole lotta cool stuff to get into there!

Update: Some photos from that photo shoot:


Somewhere in there.. I had hang-outs with 2 of my dearest closest g/f's, who I just don't see enough of, took some wonderful walks on the seawall in the sun and oh.. the Olympics started. Which may have something to do with the next phase of things.. or maybe I just felt like hiding when chaos came to town..

But then.. The flu (or something like it...) came along and all this great momentum I had built up crashed in a big fiery
(read fever-ish), achy and not feeling so great heap. I hate that.

Which meant that I was down and super sick on Feb 18th.. and..
Completely and sadly missed that great event I was invited to cover. However, I'm going by this week to see what I can scrap together about the event, hopefully view some sexy jewelry, possibly still do a write-up on it, and hope for the best!

... and I'm HUMAN again.. Present time:
Umm.. actually.. about all I'm thinking about is finally sleeping and WTF am I still doing up writing madly, listening to music and generally being a lil bit crazy.

Oh wait.. insomnia does that to a person!

[SIDENOTE: What ever happened to that whole H1N1 scare, freak-out.. thing anyway?! That to come in a blog about how to stay healthy in this crazy world of icky germs, bio-tech and expensive organic food.. in a health & wellness series I'm working on as well..]

Hmm.. editing.. later.. hope this make sense.. and pretty pictures.. of me! Red-headed hotness.. LOL. Umm.. yah. Did someone say sleep. NOW.

[FINAL NOTES: Minor editing done. Decided I don't care if it doesn't make sense.. there are much, MUCH worse "blogs" out there.. and other articles to move on to!]

Thursday, January 28, 2010



Red, yellow, green, blue - brightens,
shimmers, glows,
and dims and fades into
just color

no longer wisdom, no longer insight
just purity and shades of en-light-en-ment

just glimpses of what
lies between
the cracks of eternity

just flashes of what
lies beyond
the narrow confines of the mind

all around
and deep inside
bright and fading
blinding and contrast
everything and nothing

just color

Copyright: Michelle L. Marcicki (Dolphin)
Written: March 13, 1996

[UPDATE: February 27, 2010.. actually February 25, 2010..
I found the soundtrack for this poem.. should be linked in now, but blip.fm link below too!

~ Zebra and Snake - (MISF*TS remix) http://blip.fm/~ltwcg

NOTE: There are like 7 mix/remix version (that I know of) of this song.. listen to them all. Some of them are so different you wonder if they are same song.. Most of them kick ass.]

Thursday, January 21, 2010

I Promise Myself

~ The Optimist's Creed ~
~ From The Secret ~

I Promise Myself...

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

Christian D. Larson
(modified by The Secret)

I had originally planned to publish this post on Saturday (January 15th), but I ended up working on about 3-4 other blog drafts instead (I have about 25+ drafts at the moment :). It is easy to get too deeply mired into research for those other topics due to their complexity and requirements for integrity and consistency. However, it seemed better today.. or rather better late than never.. to just keep working on this post and "commentary", and get it up when I could.

I also noticed that with a retrograde season of craziness starting and stopping.. (Mercury was retrograde until January 15th), there is most certainly no one ending... or beginning.. and that understanding a "state of promise" takes time and patience and faith, and sometimes even a little bit of the mystic.

Actually, since I often find myself deeply influenced by the moon, and the sign it is in, it seems that more than a little mysticism is at play here. The moon was still in Aquarius up until Saturday night, and there is just something about Air signs that don't work for me. However, I noticed without knowing it at the time... that as soon as the moon had changed on Saturday (into Pisces), things shifted dramatically for me. By Sunday, I was thinking about this post again and the need to work on it and get it done was building up with the next transition into Aries on Wednesday.

See Universal Lunar Calendar for the details.
I looked at the calendar just after the "initial" blockage on working on this particular post (on January 19, 2010) so I'm intrigued by my responses and energy without having known it was in an air sign "phase".
And I haven't yet touched on the phase the moon it is in fact in... which brings into play a whole other set of dynamics.

Then with the moon shifting into what I like to call the "little sparking campFire" (Aries) on Wednesday (into Thursday), I found myself immensely inspired.. driven to be working on other writings, posts and drafts as well. The fire of creativity.. beginning, unleashing.

(in case you're not familiar with them, which is different than “familiar”)
The Four Elements of Magic and Nature:

Classical Elements:
(NOTE ones in Greece)

Elements in Fiction:

Classical Elements in Popular Culture:

In further reflection, perhaps what I needed was more time to be sure this depth of insight is what I wanted to share, to dump out there for the "world" to see, and to expose that part, that vulnerability of myself along with my interpretations of this "statement of belief" and the concepts it encompasses for me.

And then I had an interesting example this past Sunday night (Jan 17, 2010) that impacted deeply for me in some of the statements above from the "I Promise Myself..." creed, and on finding compassion.

Compassion for myself.
Compassion for others.

Yet, it took until Tuesday, and then again today, Thursday, for me to recognize those lessons fully, and explore and to do the additional research to go along with everything I wanted to reveal here. And I know that I will update this section here with regards to compassion.. with the next moon shift, as there is something yet under the surface, that I haven't yet been able to flesh out and to bring to the light.

I do tend to be a bit excessive (read obsessive ;) about my links, research, etc.. so it perhaps takes me a bit longer to post & share something, but the perfectionist in me is not sure it can be done any other way ;)

Peace is not just the absence of violence but the manifestation of human compassion.
-- Dalai Lama.

The only sin we never forgive each other is difference of opinion.
-- Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Be kind, remember everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.
-- T. H. Thompson.

Everyone needs to be loved... especially when they do not deserve it.
-- Unknown.

Kids need love the most when they're acting most unlovable.
-- Erma Bombeck.
(And adults acting like kids when their "triggers" are hit..)

If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.
-- Dalai Lama.

So.. framed by thoughts from the Dalai Lama, and quotes that remind me of the path that must be walked.. I thought.. what better time than now to embark upon a new phase, a new journey... one of empowerment, of achievement, of improvement, of beauty, of truth, of imagination, of commitment, and of promise.

I Promise Myself... many things.
And among them,
that this year WILL be different.
I feel the shift.
I feel the change.
I will take a different path to BEing.
I Promise Myself...
I Promise Myself... many things.

FROM Astrology on the Web:

"Mercury turns direct at on the day of the Capricorn New Moon on January 15th, which is itself conjunct the planet Venus, a benefic planet. This should be quite a good day all round, with some surprising benefits, especially for those who wish to make a new start. Merc stations on the fortunate Fixed Star, Kaus Borealis, which has the reputation of promoting of idealism and humanity, being endowed with bright ideas, enterprise and a sense of justice.

All areas of communication are affected by this phase, especially in matters related to teaching, healing, professional advice, workplace relationships (especially those with employees and subordinates), the military, and communications connected with such matters. Small animals may be important amidst the confusion. This period brings travel snafus, mail mishaps and missed appointments of all kinds. Documents can go astray. Be sure to carry a diary and refer to it often."

Friday, January 15, 2010

Moments Before the Dawn

This is not a poem. Moments Before the Dawn i love the stillness of dawn of that time those moments before dawn where the world is paused, holding its collective breath wondering what the reasons are waiting for truth for the purity of it all the hope of fulfillment, the promise of what is possible with the new day even hidden by rain its reassurance is there transforming in its beauty enhanced with (perhaps?) the clarity of rain washing away all that we don't need that we hold onto that is unfulfilled or hurt or hidden it somehow finds a way to creep out between the cracks in those moments before the dawn Date unknown (approximately November 8th-ish, 2009) This is not a poem. Not really. It was more of journal entry that seemed to have an interesting timing to it and when written out all pretty and funky.. kind of looks like a poem. That is all.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

"What A Good Boy"

It happens every now & then that I MUST post song lyrics...

Sigh. If it really must come out.. it is the full truth as to WHY I got a blog in the first place. I was on Twitter (@jazzdolphin on there) one day.. and I posted a song on Blip.fm (jazzdolphin on there, no @ thingy symbol needed) and I had an overwhelming urge to share the lyrics for a song. I can't recall which one at this very moment, as it has happened a number of times since. Let me tell you.. 140 char just doesn't go very far when you have the very immediate need to type a whole bunch of song lyrics out.

Actually, it isn't really why I got a blog, but it seems to be a good use for it when I have the strange and rather extreme urge to post song lyrics and no other place to go in the wee hours of the morning.
If you get that I could almost reference a Meatloaf song right there.. you may have a hope in hell of following my train of thought (and finding a caboose) in the midst of the madness I'm attempting to reign in here...

So, back to the topic at hand. Music, song lyrics, obsession... perhaps could fit into there somewhere... (and possibly sarcasm... ;)

I do random things like that.. sometimes... often... I kinda *heart* music.. it just takes over my brain & I must listen, or post, or download, or search the net for hours (and hours) reading about new bands and old...often at 2-3am in the morning. Like now.

I actually tend to do this most often on Sunday's... (the music searching & listening, etc)...

I "blame" (kidding..) George Stroumboulopoulos a wee bit (@strombo in Twitter-land).. and his Strombo Show on Sunday nights 8pm-midnight on CBC Radio 2 (http://www.cbc.ca/radio2 AND more specifically http://www.cbc.ca/radio2/programs/strombo oh AND.. http://www.strombo.com/ - which is apparently being "re-done".)
We all wait with baited breath as to what this will look like. As a former web developer.. all I can say is FINALLY.. it so needs it..
I mean.. Yah... Georgie! };> or {;/

But tonight after my usual weeknight before bed menu of The Hour, Ghost Whisperer, and some email, I found myself needing to hear a song that I'm pretty sure I only have on tape somewhere, and recalling the first time I think I heard it.

So the crazy song that started this foolishness (or possible insanity) off is "What A Good Boy" by the Barenaked Ladies. However, when a song takes you on trip, be it down a memory lane filled with forgotten neural pathways, or to a place in your heart... you have follow it through. I am finding it hard to believe that song came out in 1992. I'm having an even harder time believing that I was ~19 at the time. Hmm... Totally dated myself there. Shudder.
You do the math.

I had moved back to Calgary (after my parents had moved to Red Deer) to go to university and I had my first real apartment in a great area in downtown Calgary on 15th Ave & 1st Street. I even remember the exact address and everything... Wow. Details. And being in university and living spitting distance from places like The Republic (and The Night Gallery, etc) where live bands stopped by quite often, it was easy to build such awesome, robust and divine musical memories.

Some of my best memories and moments in music go back to that apartment and those years. More than I can get into in this "article", however I am working on an indie music/blog/series (perhaps a trilogy in 5 parts..) that will hopefully make more sense, but also trip down that memory lane in some fairly extensive detail.

Ohhh.. and only to add few more tangents to the mix here (think of it like a when an awesome DJ layers ~7 songs in & you just have to treasure it while dancing your ass off at ~5am, it may make more sense then)... while popping over to CBC's website to copy & paste those links to Radio 2, et all to make sure they were correct.. I just discovered that while I can never listen to Radio 2 Morning
(@CBCR2Morning) with Bob Mackowycz in regular time.. I can listen at 3am PST.. but on AST. Woot.

Oh yes... The Facebook Group for Citizens Against Hump-Day.
I like it Bob!

And to be even more random... Rich Terfry was just on Bob's show.. and the previous song I felt the most imminent need to post song lyrics for on Twitter was "Convoy" by "C. W. McCall" (http://blip.fm/jazzdolphin to play it along with a few other gems.)

WARNING: Before visiting the above link I should warn you.. I have rather.. ummm... "eclectic" musical taste. (It's a good thing. Honest!)

And.. just in case I've completely lost you here, I'll try and make some sense and bring this all around to some point or closure...
Rich Terfry (@CBCR2Drive)/@bucksixtyfive) was on The Strombo Show back on Dec 20, 2009 (possibly the BEST Strombo Show EVER... hint, Hint, HINT on the whole playlist/podcast thing.. please..) and those boys.. George & Rich... those nasty musical teases talked about Convoy, but DIDN'T freaking play it. So I had to go find the song on Blip and play it about 10x to fulfill my musical fix and re-live some long ago moments when I was very young, lived on a ranch and ran amok. I will however, save any details of that for another day, time & random moment in the early hours of the morning.

And while I'm not posting those particular song lyrics (Convoy), I have since gotten that out of my system.. here are the song lyrics that started this whole crazy assortment of thoughts, memories and general chaos at ~3am.

And if this made ANY sense.. at all.. let me know.
And if it didn't.. let me know.

"What A Good Boy"
by the Barenaked Ladies

When I was born, they looked at me and said
what a good boy, what a smart boy, what a strong boy.
And when you were born, they looked at you and said,
what a good girl, what a smart girl, what a pretty girl.

We've got these chains that hang around our necks,
people want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath.
Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same,
when temptation calls, we just look away.

This name is the hairshirt I wear,
and this hairshirt is woven from your brown hair.
This song is the cross that I bear,
bear it with me, bear with me, bear with me,
be with me tonight,
I know that it isn't right, but be with me tonight.

I go to school, I write exams,
if I pass, if I fail, if I drop out,
does anyone give a damn?
And if they do, they'll soon forget 'cause it won't take much for me
to show my life ain't over yet.
I wake up scared, I wake up strange.
I wake up wondering if anything in my life is ever going to change.
I wake up scared, I wake up strange
and everything around me stays the same.


I couldn't tell you that I was wrong,
chickened out, grabbed a pen and paper, sat down and I wrote this song.
I couldn't tell you that you were right,
so instead I looked in the mirror,
watched TV, laid awake all night.

We've got these chains, hang 'round our necks,
people want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath.
Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same when temptation calls ...


When I was born, they looked at me and said;
What a good boy, what a smart boy, what a strong boy.
And when you were born, they looked at you and said;
what a good girl, what a smart girl, what a pretty girl, hey

Song Lyrics: "What A Good Boy" Barenaked Ladies

(The rest of the nonsense is mine.)

Chaos, panic, and disorder... my work here is done.
~Unknown Author

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Blissful Sunday

Ok.. so I'm not really having much of a Blissful Sunday today, but it seemed weird to not post this poem on a Sunday, and there is always the chance of being reminded of some more wonderful and sexier times ;>

Hard to believe I wrote this ~13 years ago though... I did decide via doing this whole blogging thing now, that I needed to start writing poetry again like I "used to do". However, in looking back at many of these poems (and I have lots & lots more to share from the vault), I have wondered if the inspiration is gone, or if I have changed so much that that kind of soft and connected meaning is not present in my life in the same way.

Or perhaps it's more a case of idealism. I am not as idealistic (or you could say as naive) as I used to be.. with age comes wisdom.. and/or cynicism. Lol.

Either way.. I'm still a "hopeful" romantic (somewhere deep down there inside) and perhaps one day I will find someone who will make this poem seem real again.. or I'll be inspired to write an even better one.

Blissful Sunday

The sounds of water draws me in
splashing all over your body
against the porcelain wall
skin slides against skin
luscious, seductive, searching,

Burning gentle touch
that reaches deep within
and caresses tenderly the
being that we are
The ache that ebbs away
with every moment, motion, thought
laughed, shared, dreamt,

Wrapping around, entwined
in softness, in sensation
in fascination and ecstasy
Changing, learning, reaching
grasping to hold on
on to me, on to you
onto a realm that
tickles at the back of my

Waking to find it still there
real, substantial.
As your hand on my
thigh and
the pulse at your throat
that entrances
- enhances the need to
the desire to crawl
as close as we can inside.
And waking to find that
it’s Sunday.

~ Written: Summer 1996-ish (exact date unknown)
~ Copyright: Michelle L. Marcicki; 1996-2010

Friday, January 8, 2010

Craving Pickled Ginger...

Completely insane. Totally random blog posting. I'm craving pickled ginger. I have been for a few days. NO, I'm NOT pregnant. No chance of that.. but I deeply disappointed that in this day and age of Goggle.. at the altar of which I have had moments of extreme worship... I am unable to find any reasonable or rational explanation or even information in hopes of understanding for this craving of mine. Possibly that my blood pressure is low-ish & I'm craving something salty and balancing to bring it up. That's about it. The rest of the things that ginger is known for "curing" don't really apply. So I'm just going to ignore it and generally given in the craving.. seeing as when faced with a choice between chocolate and pickled ginger, I'm picking pickled ginger. Very odd. And rather unlike me considering how much I love chocolate. So, in interests of cravings and general insanity, I'm rolling with it. But, any insight is most certainly appreciated. However, I also went & got sushi 2x last week, just to get ginger. Possibly also because of the very tasty yams & avocado, but mostly for the pickled ginger. It is totally & completely nuts?! If a sushi place was open, I'd be there right now. I actually succumbed in a rather huge way to this craving and went and bought a rather large container of just pickled ginger yesterday.. or was it the day before. I was deeply concerned to find out it contains Aspartame. Icky. Damn. But you know, I didn't really care, as all I wanted to do was eat it by the handfuls.. I actually managed to eat most of it in one day.. 340 grams to be exact... And now.. I'm craving more. Sadly it is ~4am and the Safeway closed at midnight. I have no ginger. But I'm watching The English Patient in hopes of being distracted, and some of my favorite quotes are from this movie.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Almásy: This... this, the hollow at the base of a woman's throat, does it have an official name? Madox: Good God, man, pull yourself together. And even better.. the answer... Madox: Just in case you're interested, it’s called the suprasternal notch. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm trying to decide if I'm totally insane, or just pretty much as crazy as everybody else in my own unique way. Dammit when does the store open.. more pickled ginger needed here. Stat.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

The Art of Being... (Who i am)

It seems for the moment that until I develop & write a few more of the actual articles I am working on (which takes a bit of time..) I will be sharing things I have already written and a great number of those things fall into the domain of poetry...

Since sharing poetry is very, very personal at times, well.. most of the time... it is an even bigger leap for me than even doing a blog in the first place. But here it goes again..

There is a saying "Cogito, ergo sum" ~ "I think, therefore I am" ~, this is more a case of..."I write therefore I am"... Poetry offers tiny glimpses into who I am, who I want be, the parts of me I have left behind & the pieces I hope to find and integrate along the way..

Who i am

i dance and envelope my body
in sound
in ecstasy, in beauty
so true.

i move and let grace flow
from me like fluid
such ecstasy, such beauty
so pure.

i speak a lilting thought
framed in silhouette
with ecstasy, with beauty
so unlimited.

i think and spirit ebbs
all around
it’s ecstasy, it’s beauty
so me.

Copyright: Michelle L. Marcicki (Dolphin)
Written: March 13, 1996

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Off the deep end...


I am taking the plunge and "getting" a blog...

Wow... after only ~10-12+ years of mulling the idea around, having written poetry and other things for many, many more years than that (than I care to actually admit, as that would date me.. a lot). Watching friends get Live Journal sites, etc, and seeing blogging become the "thing" in the new world of IT and communication, especially in the last few years. It is now here to stay and in fact is the means of expression that is driving new media, new ideas, and creativity. Some of it is total crap, and some of it is beyond amazing. I hope I can find a way to fall into the latter realm, and share something of myself, of relevance, and of beauty to this world.

I have to admit, I am still a bit hesitant. I'm a very open person, but also incredibly private. To share my thoughts in a blog... it's a big step. But I think it's finally time. I got on Twitter with much trepidation about 1 year ago (along with other Social Media sites before that) and found it wasn't as bad I as thought and have even come to enjoy certain aspects of it. And I found myself wanting to say more than 140 char would permit.

So to start things off, I thought long and hard about what to say... beyond why would I do this crazy, yet necessary, yet now mundane and common thing like start a blog...

And so I share a poem I wrote December 28, 1990 (holy crap.. was that really 20 years ago?!), that explains why I write, what drives me to be here and is a taste of what I hope I can share..

To What Do I Owe This
(Gateway to Inside of Me)

The joy of existence,
of fulfillment, of tragedy,
is expressed by what I unwillingly
share with paper slate and pen.
From a realm of unknown spews
untamed emotion and thought,
from the very depths of being.
Uncriticized by unconscious thought and
uncontrolled by what is real,
these relentless visions are a gateway
to inside of me.

Copyright: Michelle L. Marcicki (Dolphin)
Written: December 28, 1990